Monday, December 9, 2013

With Jesus

My Dad passed away yesterday evening. He is with Jesus. He is no longer suffering. God was merciful and it was quick, peaceful with my mom at his side shortly after he went to sleep last night.

He was an amazing man. Always proud of me - my biggest cheerleader! He was a Godly man and an excellent example of husbandly love (married to my mom for 32 years) and an excellent example of fatherly love. I have been blessed immeasurably by having him as my father, my daddy.

Please pray for my family this week. Please pray for strength and peace for and amongst my family.

Easter 2013 with my Daddy

Granddaddy, Nana & Leland - May 2012

On the family farm in Tennessee

Leland @ 2 Months in Granddaddy's Arms

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Pancakes with Santa (18 days.. )

Saturday morning we had pancakes with Santa at a local restaurant. Leland actually talked to Santa this year rather than running away in fear. We are committed to not pushing him to  sitting on Santa's lap unless he wants to because I think it's a positive that is gut reaction is not to sit on strange men's laps. We also present Santa as a fun part of Christmas that helps us celebrate generocity, but we don't tell him that Santa is real.

Leland did great getting to know Santa. They talked about feeding reindeer carrots and Leland told Santa that for Christmas he would like "presents". "Two."



Friday, December 6, 2013

A Season of Waiting (19 More Days...)

As I have said, Advent really did not have much meaning to me most of my life. We did not do Advent calendars growing up. I think maybe once we made an Advent wreath craft project at church. It wasn't really until 2010 when I had just had my positive Beta results and was waiting on my ultrasound - wondering, waiting, hoping for the little life / lives within me - that I really began reflecting on the Advent season. Since then Advent has felt like a season of waiting. Right now my thoughts and prayers are with several of you as you are in this same Season of Waiting.




Somehow, this year is different. This year I have a new perspective. This year Advent is more of a Season of Preparation. But more on that later...

Hope you have a JOYOUS weekend!

Thursday, December 5, 2013

The Raw Truth (20 Days to Christmas)

I’ve been having fun posting holiday traditions on my blog and filling my facebook page with photos of Christmas decorations and such. But the truth is, I am choosing to focus on joy in the mist of stress and sadness.

My dad is not doing well. If he even makes it to Christmas, this will certainly be his last.

I am overwhelmed at times as we move forward with our second embryo adoption. We’ve had some exciting momentum (which I will share when it is finalized), but it has still been stressful.

In preparation for our second embryo adoption and hopeful pregnancy, I have been searching for a perinatologist who actually has some knowledge and expertise in the area I need. This has been harder than I thought. It’s scary and frustrating meeting with doctors who know less about a medical condition than I do. And the reality is if I were to get pregnant without an expert on hand to treat me the baby could die!

Work has been busy and I find myself under pressure to bill enough hours to not only meet my minium but to also earn extra income for our embryo adoption. Trying to take time off for the holidays has made billing hours even more challenging. I like my job, but it can be stressful at times.

I’ve been sick. Really sick. Ick.


So that’s the raw truth of all the stress and junk I am juggling. With all that I have decided to focus on the joy and magic of Christmas. I was very blessed to have a visit from a good friend last weekend who helped me decorate my home. They joy that I have found from my home being cheerfully decorated is more than I had imagined.

I share this all of you to let you know that my pretty Chiasmas pictures don’t mean that I "have it all together," but rather that through God’s grace and mercy God is showering me with joy during this season of Advent. I am choosing to focus on these gifts of joy!

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Bedtime Stories (21 Days to Christmas)

Another fun way we incorporate Christmas fun into the every day is with bedtime stories. We read two books to Leland each night before bed. During the first book he is sitting up, but he has to lay his head on his pillow for the second book. With this method he does really great with bedtime. Since I set up his Advent Calendar, I also pulled out all of his Christmas books and set them on a shelf of their own. We have been picking one of our books from the shelf - our other book is usually a Curious George book!


One of the best explanations of Santa and Christmas I have found for a little one is this sweet book called God Gave Us Christmas.

Do you have a favorite Christmas book?

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Books for Christmas (22 Days & Counting)

One of our Christmas gift giving traditions is for each Robert and I to give Leland a book. It can be anything each of us chooses that is special to us. As Leland grows older I look forward to passing on some of my childhood favorites to him. Last year I gave Leland the book "You Are My Miracle". It’s so precious that sometimes I still tear up reading it to him. The book reads like a poem and it oh so sweet.

Can you keep a secret?...this year, I have the companion book for it. It’s called, "You Are My I Love You".


 
You can check them out here on Amazon:

YOU ARE MY MIRACLE

YOU ARE MY I LOVE YOU

Monday, December 2, 2013

Advent Calendar (23 Days till Christmas)

Much of the fun in holiday is traditions. Robert and I have been very purposeful with starting traditions young with Leland. Our thoughts are that if we don’t start them now (or really at birth) when do we start them? So we talked a lot about what was important to us and how we wanted to celebrate Christmas with children.

Very important is how do we develop family holiday traditions that keep the focus of Christmas on Jesus. One way, for us, is using an Advent Calendar to facilitate a daily family devotional.

Last year, I found this great wooden Advent Calendar.


I also have nativity window / wall cling stickers. I cut them into individual stickers and use one sticker each day to build the nativity scene.



I also print off a daily devotional. This year I found a great one online written especially for children at Advent. I can't figure out how to load it here, but if you are interested I'd be happy to email it to you.

In each box there is a daily devotional page folded up, along with the nativity sticker, and one M&M just for fun. This was a huge hit with Leland last year and was really a blessing to our family to set aside this time together each night before Leland's bedtime.

Are you doing an Advent Calendar this year?

It’s not too late. Yesterday was the first Sunday of Advent. And in full disclosure, last year I was running late and had to scale ours down to just three weeks, but it was still rewarding and successful!

Don’t have an Advent Calendar? Consider using plain envelopes and just writing numbers on them!

Sunday, December 1, 2013

Advent Countdown-to-Christmas

Today is the first Sunday of Advent. Growing up Advent wasn't a favorite time for me. Really, I took only minimal notice of this season of the church. Christmas wasn't even my favorite holiday as a child!

My infertility journey has given me a new perspective on Advent and it is slowly becoming one of my favorite seasons of the church year. So my plan this Advent season is to share a daily countdown with you of what Advent means to me and how our family celebrates Advent and Christmas with some unique and many not-so-unique holiday traditions, decorations, and fun.

I hope you will join me as I challenge myself to blog daily and as I share my heart and my fun with you.